Gears

Gazing Giants

Riptides, pulling us apart
I reach for him, drowning in this fallow sea
But the bliss has fallen away in this frozen season –
Sorrow so barren that its killed its tears
Still, the clouds cry to the moon
But she hurts too much to care
Disintegrating into a chilly, forlorn sliver
Abandoning our sacred coupling
Her twilight divinity a madness that dizzies the crows eyes
They pick apart our pieces, feathering their nests with our jewels
Leaving our naked wounds open to the elements
Clockwork rolling backwards
Tock tick… tock tick…
Gears grinding against the rust that’s held us together
Metal merging with mist through the cracked glass
The earth rolls left and loves thick liquid pours between tilted dials
Splashes upon the rocks like rubies that won’t feed the impoverished
In crowded spaces of empty rooms words evict meaning
Red pain screams itself into black
Half dead in its aliveness
Writhing anguish, watered into blooming by graveside tears
I see my garish death in your angel face of loathing
We scream our frustration, searching for words to silence words
In this violent incident you drag resignation behind your dented shadow
Storm out into the dead light
Cigarette anger glow beneath shriveled stars –
Their luminosity surgically excised by our serrated tongues
A blunt violation lacking a sterile room
The air is falling – our inebriated shadows cascading starved love…
Swaying down the flawed halls of methodology of the condemned
While the bells exhale silence
The moon blows a kiss goodbye
Then descends through the rutted sky after remorse
That last icicle of light melting into dark fallout
I wish this waste would gag my eyes with dementia –
The lunacy of a happy fool…
Sprout musty mushroom scales inside my heart
Tangle my nerve endings with an arctic ocean
Weave cryptic manifestations into my mind to confuse its agony
So it curls into itself like a sea anemone –
Shut down and armored; Floating on the blue grey brink
But evidence gulps tranquil bliss like a predatory black hole
The gears grind against the rust that’s held us together
A metal sandstorm in the hourglass

Rampage

Rushing Roaring Rebellious Rapids

Please note that I’ve used a specific word in this poem that you may consider vulgar.

The ghosts moved in a few years ago, haunting your soul, and now they’re haunting mine
I’ve watched you disappear into the catacombs of wretchedness
Dissolving into yourself, your thoughts like banshees screeching on bad acid
Your demons have stolen my tranquility, my sacred space
Left terror on my doorstep, howling at the keyhole
My insides twisted, gnarled… hellhounds circling, my spirit chewed up and eaten by this rabid plague –
It retches blood, splattering the walls like teardrops, my sorrow too deep for an ocean to hold
A slow, torturous death right in front of you
But you’re too occupied with your rage –
Holding it tight like a lover
Tasting it with your ravenous lips, caressing it with greedy fingers, entering it with a lascivious thrust…
To take notice of my anguish
How my pale spirit weeps
How it whispers the low, mournful ballad of despair
Disheartened visions of itself, somber, hopeless, exhaling your name upon its tomb; Sacrificed –
By your brutal need to burn, vaporize the shrill, deafening distortion, pollution, madhouse –
The mind fuck that flashes RED behind your combustible, deluded eyes
This meltdown into the pit of the damned… your solitary confinement… incarceration…
There aren’t enough tears to put out this fire
No begging, no pleading, no ideal apologies carved in blood, whimpered in agony, conjured through sorrow –

Expelled with a last breath

Will appease the demon you’ve become
You gorge on discontent, suck it down, rub it in your festering wounds
Agony an elixir; This bitter intoxication, writhing poetic justice, retribution unedited –
Has become your holy grail
Words and letters scattered in blood and ink, dripping off of pages, fading syllables of truths and lies
Penned in fury, bewilderment, ravishing sorrow. Atonement sewn into each fibrous page
This catharsis only a sabotage, a mirage that you will come to grieve, suffer during the Dead March
As the demons unleash a ravage of malice, extract the sweet from the aftermath
To turn it into sour
This massacre of your spirit
Has become the massacre of my own
Sentiments, affections are pointless when the bones have already been buried
And your eyes are vacant –
Emptied long ago, the crows too late to scavenge
Spring is the season of my discontent
You plow my carnage, till the clotted, toxic dirt and sow my suffering
The seeds need planting but I’m mangled, dying in pieces, strewn over this rotting, desolate landscape
You bring no water for my thirst, murder the sun to hoard your beloved darkness, and I wither, while
You write words that lure your mind into turmoil and your mind writes words that lure you into betrayal
Fractured, like a crumbling David, you fall in pieces into your miserable, illogical obsessions
Battered by raining nightmares, you writhe and lash, ride headfirst into the fumes on a snorting beast of torment
Ruptures of words, thick and heavy, contorted meanings, shape-shifting specters, contaminated assaults –
Damage what remains in your head
And I am left behind, alone to erase what I can’t see in the dust
I long to ease your brutalities with the soft shadings in my heart –
Turn these impotent tears into a rushing river; Wash away your misquoted humanity
Bring your fragrant dreams back to you
Return to your brilliant eyes the stars, wrapped in moon glow
Your pain has such depth that my bones shift and ache, leave me
Begging for breath, rest, shelter and visions of Times enduring healing, but you remain
Lost to me, to seasons, to the simple and sweet, to the loveliness of being, to the sacred… to yourself
You rampage

Small Atrocities

Dazzling Desert Dreams

Waiting under a midnight sapphire sky
Chandeliers of white lilies and lotus –
A petalled, frilly, perfumed canopy
My dreams tangled with sorrow, best buried among the weeds now
Love lying in the graveyard where the crows pick at its bones
Jewels long gone; Tossed into stolen piles of hoarded trinkets
To rust like metal in an angry, vicious sea
This twisted disaster –
Ghosts dancing to a funeral dirge before death bothered to extract its execution
No ritual, no exorcism would have turned grey into color
Weeping words slithered down sun-starved cheeks, while the moon chanced painful glances –
Wondering how to unravel severed veins from pumping, empty hearts
How to find remorse in a vacant vessel
There will be no contented sighs for this discontented fiction –
And tears are better served to authentic paupers, fools and dreamers
Than to this charming, beguiling illusion that deceives the damned
Swarms through blood like bees from their bludgeoned hive
But this trial by fire melts… cauterizes traitorous skin from solid bones –
A cocooned awakening…
Sears the patina from tarnished pupils until fallacy cracks into withered, new-born moons
That coax poetic dancing on the riverbank
Primal, unabashed gyrations that shake specters from a damaged soul
Sensuous flailing… Delicate feet and slender legs, gracious thighs whispering to private gardens
Soft belly, wispy arms, willowy fingers, pillowy breasts, plump mouth, flowing hair –
Moon-kissed skies… lips pressed against hopeful eyes…
A new season of voluptuous photographs
A new breeze through the open window
Upon which burnt words disperse, then crumble into dust that coats the tumbleweeds in this arid desert
Rolling away from this sacred border onto the parched landscape of forgotten dreams
Where the sun will bake their spiky bristles into brittle nests
That the magpies snap and gather, to carry off into the trees of yesterdays archives
What remnants remain of another lifetime, wrapped in iridescent stars –
Tossed into the sky for the sun to keep…
Waiting under a midnight summer sky
Chandeliers of purple-sweet lilacs
Their breath blooming dreams in the garden and on my lips
Tears ground up in the drain until the switch broke
Sutures dissolving in a thousand quiet, unblessed wounds
The moon whispers mystery into my ear, brings new words for my calloused fingers to leak
Time is turning over on itself
The ache is now a constant, dull shadow, a spirit storm tolerable but deserving of a funeral
The shovel is where he left it
I have avoided those small atrocities that he left behind –
There are no angels concerned with loves small atrocities
But summer is fleeting and Fall must not be abandoned to heartless acts
So beneath falling silvery stars that burn deep ravines in the lavender stained sky
I am an eclipse, a shadowed summer, filtered through a ripe, late sun lens
My inky pupils my brooding pen, burning skeleton images onto crisp linen, coffee-stained pages
Writing lyrical requiems until the last dead give up their ghosts
And the moon births my eyes