Bleak

Smoldering pages, burnt beyond recognition
Written from your raw 3am heart, seen through your warrior eyes
Declarations of love, sooty fossils now, Lascaux broodings smudged on pale palms
Seen through hazel orbs, simmering grief beneath a violet veil
Words colliding with pain, a symphony of desire, drenched in anguish
As we tangled, then exploded like a dying star
You were meant to be my lover, but love?
Lovely was never stitched into our tapestry… it stood in the mirror like a snapped shadow
There was no forever meant to be deciphered, sealed in stone
This bleak coupling, a road winding through mounds of ashen tears –
Our eyes… glassy globes where winters frozen flakes were always falling
Our instinct was just to survive, and only prolonged the pain swelling our sentimental wounds
This tempest sucking the marrow from our bones
Stealing the breath from our whispers
Wringing the meaning from our words
Like barbed wire, time pierced our hearts leaving ruby pools of blood on the bedroom floor
Which you smeared in my hair as you ran your fingers through it…
Which you painted on my cheeks as you lovingly patted them…
Like ruby lace, decorating our skin as we enjoyed a rare moment of tenderness, intimacy… denied desire…
Losing ourselves to passion instead of anger for just one night beneath a glowing, frosty moon
Your beautiful body beneath my hands, fingers tracing your naked perfection
Claiming you as mine for just one night, letting all of the betrayals fall away –
Knowing this would be the last loving poem, words written with our breathless yearning
Fingernails licking your back one final time, lips pressing predictions on my body anywhere you wanted
One final time
Thinking only of now
This moment
Desire

Why are you here? Is there a reason for our existence besides this bed of tortured pain?

Tease the sweet from the candy, add the bitter to the pill
This divine tragedy, such dark and lovely pain to dip the bones into
A strange familiar softness; This despondent, lovers cocoon…
I’ll search among the stars until I find
Your sweet, dark caramel eyes
Brimming with an ocean of sorrow at our demise
Longing for me as I long for you –
While telling me goodbye