Sorrow Crept

Lambent Lavender Lotus Lolling

There was a moment
When Sorrow crept down
Raw, deep, unkempt and unbound –
Upon your snow white linen skin to wrap her arms around
To provoke from cold, to warm, to singe –
Her purr like a liquor do-me right now, then… let me do you in…
She rained on you in a torrent
As you prayed you would be drowned
Fascinating pain, minus the superficial sound
Soft silken gestures seducing tolerance; Unbound
Fetish murmurs kissed your sins
While your pores drank her in
Down on your knees
You murmured… lover
She, who was unlike no other
Pearl-weathered wings, so soft, to smother
She, such desolation could reveal –
Each minuscule, aching, soulful seal
Your seraphic face turned upward
A dreamy offered being…
Eyes open but not seeing…
Losing control is freeing…
Such a lovely affliction that you could never spurn
Sorrow – your addiction – even as you burn
So pure and true
Your obsession with her haunting
Every scar you’re flaunting
While she keeps on taunting –
On your way to ruin
You still spin, then swoon…
There was a moment
When Sorrow crept down
Raw, deep, unkempt and unbound –
Upon your snow white linen skin as you knelt on the ground
And there as you kneeled
Your truth was revealed
As she swept you with her pain
You held your scars out
Hoping she’d erase your doubt
Rip away from you loves drought
This reverent offering
Was worth bothering…
In this valley
Demons deeming, Saints sainted…
All this Sorrows overrated
Your precious heart she has tainted
Yes she’s familiar, warm and cozy
But without those glasses not so rosy
Peel her from your skin
Drown the evidence in all this rain
Of when you ran naked and unashamed –
Wept 5 seasons of insane
Until the village cast, from sacred scrolls
A spell to give you back control
Remove the oppressor of your soul –

Waste your life on better things of which your bell could toll

Interlude (Bad Seed)


Twisted Tilted Toppled Train Tracks?

Head against the glass
Stormclouds forming…
I’ve screamed 6 months of madness but made no sound
I am the walking dead; I am insanity spread like raspberry jam, tart yet sweet oxymoron complete
Nothing left to fear because all of my monsters have found me hiding in this creaking town
But I’m working on my illness
With scalpel and acid, razor and wire
Even though you feed my addictions, afflictions, regressions –
My woe…
The madness of my dreams in this love stained room…
Where I’ve slithered down your body
Into your dark hidden basement where sinners confess –
A victim, a sick-dom, an emotional whore…
Mascara-plumed lashes bleeding back tracks down my face
Somehow, there seems to be no way to get around this
Standing in the muck, ankle deep in breach of self
I thought I thought complicity a violation
Fortune cookie expelling obfuscation
Mind askew; I never saw the deadly hue
Crumb trail pointing to a view on disappointment ridge
Darkness in night
Russian fool nesting doll; 13 maniacal grins
We are our own deceptions and delusions

I’ve preferred foggy mirrors…

Rusted eyes, the illogical nihilism of a wounded child
Where did the stars go?
Where do the wounds flow?
Running blind, chasing around a Jungian ghost –
You undress the repressed so carefully, beneath your lovely dark corset…
This indigenous contraption that defines my comfort
Confines, refines, lets free… at my own volition
From foul failings, disenchantments, delinquencies and illusions
Twisted notions, assumptions, devotions
This toil may be bitter, but it reveals silver tears and lacy laughter lining my soul
Still, retching the putridity of times absurd lottery is a constant…
I will crawl to keep –
Stepping into prayer, whatever direction that may seek –
River spirit, Crow warrior, Wind father, Moon goddess, Bee queen
Garden and herb, benevolent pine, nettle and stone, reed and quill, sediment and wood
Mottled with ancient medicines, therapies, remedies; Mettle carry me!
I’ve lost my way among sulphuric visions that fates so clearly shown…
Save me through your eyes, your truth; Ivy to my dormant roots
I’ll take these tattered wings from the corner, and with needle and string
Attempt to stitch myself, carve, bend, pinch myself into a place called home, before I’m gone for good –
Pulling the curtain of stars from the world as I fall backward through the crevice –
And grasping at the cloth reveals I’ve given less than I’m owed
Let me cauterize that which suggests, that possibly
The piece of me you’ve come to see is just a weed some bad seed sowed